Welcome to my stop on Desmond P Ryan’s Death Before Coffee blog tour!

Many thanks to Emma @ damppebblesblogtours for the opportunity to take part. I have an excellent excerpt to share with you all today, but watch this space for my review!
The phone on his desk rang.
A womanâs voice slurred a few lines of âHappy Birthday,â then, âStill chasinâ bad guys, Detective?â
âHow are you, Brenda?â
âA little drunk right now,â the caller said, giving a self-deprecating chuckle, âbut otherwise good. You?â
âIâm doing well. Thanks for asking.â Mike couldnât recall Brenda ever having called and not being âa little drunk.â Who could blame her? Certainly not him.
âStill nothing?â
âStill nothing. Iâm sorry.â
âI know, Detective OâShea. Weâre all sorry.â
The hallway outside the office was flooding with noisy uniformed officers heading out to the back parking lot in preparation for their midnight shift.
âGuys? Please?â Julia called out, her voice cutting through the low, exclusively male hum that was echoing off the hallway walls. âWeâre trying to work in here.â
A few comments about the job being fucked and that a trained squirrel could manage this shitshow better than their sergeant were the last of it before the noise subsided. Both Dave and Ron gave Julia a nod of thanks.
âPlease, Lord, give me the strength that I need to face today,â Julia whispered, eyes closed, head bowed, right hand grasping her cross. âI donât have to worry about tomorrow. If You just give me the strength that I need today, that is all I need. You know the rest. Amen.â
âIf this so-called God of yours exists, tell Him to pull up His socks. Heâs slacking,â Ron huffed, annoyed at his reliefâs pre-shift ritual.
âOh, and God?â Julia added, bowing her head as she pulled her coffee from the tray. âBe kind to Ron. Even if he isnât kind to anyone else. Iâm sure he tries in his own special way. Amen.â
She lifted the plastic top off and savoured the smell before taking what would be, as usual, the only sip of hot coffee she would have time for during her shift.
Mike was only half-listening to Brenda. In fact, he could hardly hear her voice over the racket just outside the doorway prior to Juliaâs intervention. Not that he couldnât have practically scripted this conversation by heart. The calls during the first five years or so had been a little more hopeful. Now they were just annual calls.
âI think about my baby every day, you know,â Brendaâs voice broke as she began to whimper.
âSo do I.â And he did.
Julia turned her head slightly, her ear closer to Mike. Even though it had been years since that night and it could have been anyone on the other end of the line now, she had a good idea of who the caller was. While it wasnât quite the same, she had a few callers like that herself. Everyone who had been in the Juvenile Prostitution Task Force did: usually a mother or sister of one of the girls who didnât make it out. Some called on an anniversary of something, while others just called when they were lonely. Or drunk. Julia had one mother whom she met every December 15th in a little bistro around the corner from where her daughter was killed. That one was easier, if there was even such a thing as easy in these cases. They had caught the guy who killed her little girl. And the girl was dead. Closure, or so they said. By the slump in Mikeâs shoulders, Julia figured that his caller hadnât been so lucky.
âSheâs twenty-seven years old today, you know.â Brendaâs voice broke as she struggled to continue. âIf sheâs still alive.â
âI know.â Mike remembered her birthday. And the last time he saw her as Malcom was plucking her out of the group of frightened girls to be his hostage, leaving themâalong with Mike and Ronâto die in the burning factory. Chelsea Hendricks was fourteen then. Had been on the stroll ever since she was twelve because there was a demand for sex with twelve-year-olds.
The muscles in his neck tightened.
âThanks for remembering. So,â Brenda took a deep breath, âtell me about your life, Detective OâShea. You get married again? And your boy?â
âYeah,â he sighed. They werenât supposed to talk about their personal lives. It had been one of the few explicit rules of the JPTF, but it was impossible not to give something back to these mothers who had lost everything. âAnd my son is doing well, thanks for asking.â
âIâm so sorry for callingâŚâ She began to cry again.
âNo. Itâs okay. Iâm glad you did. That you do,â Mike said, vividly recalling that little girl standing on the corner, caught up in a grown-up world, becoming increasingly unrecognizable as the addictions consumed her childâs body and undeveloped brain. âItâs been thirteen years now, hasnât it?â
Julia rose from her chair, her eyes welling up as she looked at Mike. She knew whom he was talking to. She wanted to hug him and remind him that he had done everything he couldâthat they all hadâbut things just didnât work out. Thatâs what he had always told her when a case went south.
But this wasnât just a case, though. And it wasnât just about the girl.
âYeah. Hard to believe, eh?â Brenda said, fighting back her tears. âI still remember that night you came to our door, you and that girl cop. Some daysâmost daysâit feels like it was yesterday. You were so handsome back then. Are you still handsome, Detective OâShea?â
âDepends who you ask,â Mike glanced around the room, noticing Julia moving from behind her desk, walking towards him. He waved her back, embarrassed. This wasnât the old JPTF office. No hugging here.
âStill funny, too.â He could hear the woman on the other end of the line pausing to take a long sip of whatever the hell her anesthetic-of-choice was tonight. âNo leads on where my baby is?â
âNo leads.â Not a fucking break in thirteen years.
âShe was a good girl, you know.â Mike was sure the glass Brenda was drinking from was emptying quickly now.
âI know.â They all were good girlsâŚonce. Fuck.
âJust got in with the wrong crowd. That happens, right? I mean, itâs not like her father and I didnât love her. Did you know we broke up, me and Jeff?â
Gin, Mike recalled. Brenda always drank gin. He could hear the cap on the bottle being unscrewed as she prepared to pour herself another ounce. Or two. Or three.
âYeah, I remember you telling me that.â Mike looked out into the hallway just outside the D office, noticing the uniforms still filtering towards the back door that would lead them into the night as the parading sergeant, clipboard in hand, passed out keys for the cars.
âSuch a shame, you know. Good man, Jeff. Itâs just⌠well, after Chelsea, it was too hard, you know? The drinking didnât help, mind you. Happens a lot, apparently. The counsellor that we went toâthanks for setting all that up for us, by the wayâsaid that having a child go missing like that is worse than a death. Funny thing to say, eh? Anyway, said it was one of the hardest things on a marriage. I guess he was right.â
âI guess.â
âJeff was the only one strong enough to sober up.â Mike heard Brenda take a gulp of gin before returning to her usual-suspect theory. âI still think it was that guy she met at the mall. You checked him out, right?â
âYes. Many times.â If he had been talking to anyone but Brenda, Mike would have lost his patience by now. But he wasnât. It was Brenda, and he had all the time in the world for her. It was the least he could do.
âAnd it wasnât him?â
âNo,â Mike replied gently, knowing that he was breaking her heart all over again. âIt wasnât him.â
âI mean, maybe not him him, but somebody he knew? Before that, she was such a good girl: no drugs, no boys, no sex. And then she met him. Jeff said I overreacted, that I pushed her to him. The counsellor said blaming didnât help, but I know Jeff blamedâno, still blames me. If anyoneâs to blame, itâs Jeff. He didnât say anything when he had the chance.â
âIâm sorry.â
âItâs not your fault, Detective OâShea. None of itââ
âSure.â Mike watched the parading sergeant rub out something on his clipboard with the eraser on his pencil as he detailed the last of his officers.
âI know the papers were pretty hard on you. About your partner getting shot like that. And you not even pulling your gun, but I know you would haveââ
âYeah.â
âWhen the two of you came to the door that first time and told me and Jeff that you knew where Chelsea was and that she was a hooker, I wanted to kill both of you, you know?â Mike heard the metal cap working its way off the bottle again, then the gin gurgling into the waiting glass. âI honestly wanted to gouge your eyes out. Like it was your fault. And then, after everything, when you came to our door the last time, just you by yourself, I kind of felt like it was my fault, you know? That if I hadnât have wanted to kill you both, your partner would still be alive. Howâs that for fucked-up thinking, eh?â
Mike watched as the parading sergeant turned around to walk back up to the front of the station, all of his charges accounted for. Then he looked at Ron reading over what he had been so feverishly typing, his brow furrowing occasionally as, Mike assumed, he was reconsidering his choice of words. As if it mattered.
âItâs okay, Brenda,â he said, hearing the glass click on her teeth as she took a big gulp and began to cry.
âIs it really? Honestly? I hope so, because I feel anything but normal now. With Chelsea and Jeff both goneâŚâ Mike heard her finishing off her drink. âI think heâs remarried, you know. A girl from work, I think. Like it never happened. How do people do that, Detective? Just pick up and move on?â
âI dunno.â
âYou havenât moved on, have you?â
Mike took a deep breath.
âYou okay?â Ronâs voice brought Mike back to the present. Mike nodded yes at his partner.
âYou were right there when your pretty-boy partner got shot, werenât you, Detective?â Brendaâs words got slower as the alcohol held her closer and closer. âThe papers said you were right behind him. That the guy tried to kill you, too, but the gun jammed. That you didnât even have a chance to get your gun out beforeââ
âYeah. Thatâs what they say.â
âMust have been had for you. For his mother. He had a mother, right?â Again the sound of the cap being twisted off the bottle.
âYeah. He had a mother.â
Mike had not known Salâs mother before the funeral. Before he held out the pillow with her sonâs forage cap on it. Before she took the cap, cried quietly for a moment, wiped her tears, and hugged him.
âYou ever have nightmares about that?â
âNo.â
âGoing for coffee. Anyone want one?â Dave jumped up from his seat, reaching for the coat that was no longer on the desk beside him before smiling over at Julia.
âYou just came in with one!â Ron objected.
âYou never know whatâs been on that desk, Dave,â Julia cautioned, passing him his coat from the rack. âI once got home and found a mouse in my purse. Seriously. Thatâs why I keep it in the drawer now. This place is disgusting.â
âYouâre never going to find her, are you, Detective?â The voice in Mikeâs ear repeated what the voice in his head told him whenever it could. âMy Chelsea?â
âWeâre do our best, Brenda.â
âBut no one is actually out there looking any more, are they?â
âNot from the JPTF, no, butââ
âThis is the only chance Iâll have tonight,â Dave hollered by way of an explanation as he hustled out the door. âLast call!â
âShit, Iâm out of fucking gin!â Brenda screamed to no one in particular, and then without missing a beat, continued talking to Mike, her voice much softer. âYouâre still looking, though, arenât you?â
âI look every day.â
âI have to hang up now, Detective,â she concluded abruptly, as she did every year when the booze ran out. âSame time next year?â
âSame time next year.â
âUnless you find her?â
âUnless I find her.â
âGoodnight, Detective.â Her voice broke as she began to weep.
âGoodnight, Brenda.â
âOh, and Detective?â
âYes?â
âI include you in my prayers every night.â
âThank you, Brenda. If I prayed, I would do the same for you. Goodnight.â

Death Before Coffee (Mike OâShea #2) by Desmond P. Ryan
Book Blurb:
By 2:27 on a Thursday afternoon, the one-legged man from Room 8 at 147 Loxitor Avenue has been beaten to death with a lead pipe. Twenty-eight minutes later, Detective Mike OâShea is testifying in a stuffy courtroom, unaware that, within an hour, he will be standing in an alleyway littered with beer cans and condoms while his new partnerâthe man who saved his life thirteen years agoâflicks bugs off of a battered corpse with a ballpoint pen. When a rogue undercover copper prematurely hauls in the prime suspect, Mike blows a fuse, resulting in an unlikely rapport developing between him and the lead homicide detective sergeant, a woman known for her stilettos and razor sharp investigative skills. At the end of his seventy-two-hour shift, three men are dead and Mike OâShea is floating in and out of consciousness in an emergency room hallway, two women by his side.
Death Before Coffee, the second book in the Mike OâShea Crime Fiction Series, weaves a homicide investigation through the life of an inner-city police detective intent on balancing his responsibilities as a son, brother, and newly single father with his sworn oath of duty. When faced with death, Mike is forced to make decisions that stir up old memories, compelling him to confront his demons while fighting the good fight.
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Publishing Information:
Published in eBook and paperback on 8th February 2019.
About Desmond P. Ryan:

For almost thirty years, Desmond P. Ryan worked as a cop in the back alleys, poorly-lit laneways, and forgotten neighbourhoods in Toronto, the city where he grew up. Murder often most unkind, assaults on a level that defied humanity, and sexual violations intended to demean, shame, and haunt the victims were all in a dayâs work. Days, evenings, midnights–all the same. Crime knows no time.
Whether as a beat cop or a plainclothes detective, Desmond dealt with good people who did bad things and bad people who followed their instincts. And now, as a retired detective, he writes crime fiction.
Real Detective. Real Crime. Fiction.
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